Yesterday I met my two best friends at this moment. We went to the Korean place and it was so funny to be there on Valentine's day all surrounded by people in love and there we were the three of us sharing noodles and fried chicken. It was strange to not know who I missed the most of the two of them, given the circumstance that one is my ex-boyfriend and the other was a bit of a big crush until you came into my life and I actually told him the day before leaving for Croatia. I wanted so bad to talk about you but I didn't, I just mentioned that we were planning on doing a podcast if we have the opportunity of coming back and that you studied Mechatronics engineering so you have all the fucking electronic things because of that. It is kind of relieving to really know that I can be friends with Sebas after such a long relationship and I know that eventually I will talk to him about you, about the nights and the real reason why I want so bad to come back. On the other hand, Eduardo is giving me a headache. He told me he didn't want anything with me and I knew that, but seeing him still hurts a bit because of the possibilities. If the reason why he couldn't see me as a romantic interest was that he still sees Sebas and me as one, would it change if I told him about you? Would he be jealous? I don't think so in any case. I still miss you more in two days of not seeing you than what I have missed everyone in here in one month, that must mean something. Yeah, probably that I have a fucking problem. They were very surprised that I wanted to hang out yesterday since it was my first day here. They said after one month without any privacy they for sure would like to be in hermit mode for at least a couple of days before seeing anyone. I laughed. I knew what would happened if I would be left alone for too long. Exactly what's happening today. I can't take my mind off of you. I start overthinking. I feel alone. I miss you. So I'm so happy I'm gonna go to the movies tonight again but I really hope there's not another freaking guy who looks exactly like you in this one. I don't know what to do with the plastic bowl you gave me but it's there, on my desk along with all the things I want to say to you, like how it turns me on just thinking about how you told me to take off my clothes when we slept together and you probably don't even remember because you were too tired, or how I have to control myself to not answer everything you say, even if it's a simple yes or no 'cause I don't want the conversation to be over. But yeah, usually I control and just check on you if you send me an invitation to the trivial thing.
miércoles, 15 de febrero de 2023
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