Coming back

 I miss you, it's nothing new. I've been missing you since we got in the car and left for the airport. But this time is different. You came with us, you held my hand, you let me kiss you, I saw the pain in your eyes while waving goodbye. And I'm still terrified, of course, I wonder how many days it would take for you to forget about me but then you talk to me and answer with more than a yes or a no and tell me you want me to come to Estonia. I can't help it, I'm so scared but at the same time I feel safer than last month. I understand the situation, I know what I'm dealing with. And I just want to say to you that I want to see you but I don't 'cause I don't want to pressure things, I know you haven't had the time to miss me yet. I wonder if you have read what I wrote, I wonder how you felt when you read it, if it would move something inside you. Anyway, I'm gonna stop overthinking, I'm gonna take a shower, put some makeup, take the metro and drink cider and eat guacamole with Sebas while I think I only want to eat guacamole and drink cider with you.