Whatever

 I don't know what to do. I really don't. I could show you this and tell you to use google translate, I could tell you that I just want you to want me. For no fucking reason. I just want to feel desirable, wanted, atractive and I don't know how to do it without freeze to death. I don't know how to start a conversation with you, what to tell you to be funny, interesting to your eyes. I don't want to fuck with you. I'm not even atracted to you, I just... want to have fun, like all those years ago. I want to have fun and to flirt and to kiss someone if I want to. Fuck me and my romantic monogamous bullshit decisions. I have always been better at expresing myself writing than talking. I could write to you and tell you what I really think, that I care about you, that I'm happy when you show me something you think I will be interested in, what is it about me and lost causes, sad people, broken people? I want to talk to you, send you stickers, send you sexy pictures for no reason, just for you to see me.